Diary: Self-discipline and social commitment

Obviously my caption is none other than the phrasal school regulations of TsingHua university, as time goes on, I really wanna commit myself to such a classical philosophy rather than make it turn out to be a dumb skin-deep commitment even though I know exactly that it is no easy way to make saying and going agree with each other all the while. Part of me may be slothful every now and then, while, no matter what, I dare not cross that line, in other words, my yardstick, I don’t mean to own a futile future, while in reality I deem that nobody accepts to submit willingly himself to a dim tomorrow after all we all wanna make all the difference.
As of today, I will commit the slogan to my memory for life, no matter how harsh the life or the situation will be. There being a very important driving force behind my back, from the bottom of my heart I honestly mean to overtake and outstrip her in the near future. You know I am not getting along with her all through. I figure this is the God’s will of giving a defiant opponent to me. I have to confess the truth that we’ve debated vehemently time after time for the past couple years and there is no need for me to cover up something on purpose, plus we have hard feelings toward each other so you can imagine how awkward the relationship between us. While, nevertheless, all these things are not the key, what matters is how am I supposed to do to have a more fabulous future than her. When I fall short, I must be committed to do better without a particle of doubt for fear that my blueprint and faith should fall apart.
To be accurate, I summit that little do I loath the guy, maybe it has something to do with respective personalities. I am saying barely did I have the sense of favor before, actually the moment we met each other, I was totally touched by her amazing charm at first sight, inluding her style of writing. On the face of it, if everything went right, we may strike up a very friendly fellowship, at least there was a friendly way to reconcile the harsh problem between us.
No matter what, it is a very complicated story, in some ways, she takes it as a mental scar for life. What I wanna do right now is pound away at making arrangements for my future life, as for the result, nothing can I predict except waiting and seeing what happens. Hopefully she can be my eternal competitive opponent.